ang hirap talaga ng ganitong feeling eh. yung tipong dapat natutuwa ako pero for some reason, I can’t.
You see, hindi naman puro happy things and random goodness ang ibblog ko dito. For some reason, I feel like I’m not the same person I was before. I’m not the same person as I was the last week nor the last month. I’m changing everyday and sigurado ako na ayoko na maging yung give-away person na madaling basahin. Ayoko na ng ganun eh. Nakakainis. Nakakainis lang yung sarili ko kung ganun ako.
As much as possible, lumalapit ako sa distance na tingin ko safe para sa akin. Tipong, walang expectations, walang demands. I want to change, for the better. Ayoko din kasi na maging demanding, ayoko din magexpect. Ayoko sa kahit anong tulad nun or kahit anong malapit sa salitang relationship. Which is good for me dahil ang dami kong namiss sa mundo noong nagmumukmok ako para sa mga bagay na hindi ko naman mababalik.
And for once, I tried to stay away from whatever I did before. I tried to change my ways. Ayoko ng iforce yung sarili ko sa buhay ng iba. and I’m not doing anything like that now. Though minsan, may mali din ako pero hindi naman ako aprating pwedeng iblame.
I can be a great friend if people want me to be their great friend. pero hindi na ako pwedeng sabihan na gawin ko yung mga bagay na siguro yung dating ako, gagawin. Kasi mahirap. Nakakainis. Ayoko na mainis sa sarili ko. Ayoko din mainis sa yo.
Takte. dapat masaya ako. Pupunta akong beijing bukas eh.
–adjective
| 1. | existing or occurring in a high or extreme degree: intense heat. |
| 2. | acute, strong, or vehement, as sensations, feelings, or emotions: intense anger. |
| 3. | of an extreme kind; very great, as in strength, keenness, severity, or the like: an intense gale. |
| 4. | having a characteristic quality in a high degree: The intense sunlight was blinding. |
| 5. | strenuous or earnest, as activity, exertion, diligence, or thought: an intense life. |
